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Now that it's over.

Journal Entry: Wed May 14, 2008, 1:20 AM
  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: Bob Dylan - Idiot Wind
Melissa S. Marovitz

Scientifically artistic. Music. Dance. Photo. Sketch.

Lyrics of the Week:


I was burned out from exhaustion, buried in the hail,
Poisoned in the bushes an' blown out on the trail,
Hunted like a crocodile, ravaged in the corn.
"Come in," she said,
"I'll give you shelter from the storm."


Bob Dylan: Shelter from the Storm


It's that time of the semester again when people begin to discuss their GPAs with pride and wave their numbers in front of my face.
It's that time of the semester again where I sit back and reflect on what I did to bring myself to where I am today.
It's that time of the semester again where I feel like I should be punished for not accomplishing anything but waking up everyday and making it work on those days that I'm scheduled.
It's that time of the semester again where I debate that what I'm doing is what I truly want to be doing.

But you know, despite how much I'm disappointed with myself, there is always those lessons I've learned. Like how I need to not rely on retaining information after one class period or like how I need to wake up in the morning to go to class. I have a foggy sense of the future, while before it was so clear and precise. I can't be where I am forever. I can't sit in this room and look forward to that one thing a day. I can figure out what I need to take care of and where I need to be.

My option, as of right now, is to move and start over. I want to move out of this area completely and begin anew. I want to reevaluate what I coin as success and what it will take me to get there. I know who I need to talk to and I know who I want by my side, despite all of my changes.


I want to stop being sick. I never get colds, but this one has knocked me off my feet for four days now.


I've been listening lately. To everything. In short, I've found my inspiration. I've found it in music, in the people I talk to everyday, and in myself. I know that I can amount to something, whether it be a big achievement or a small success. I know that if I continue to learn, I'll continue to grow and turn out for the better.

I know who I need to thank and keep close by my side. I have my family. I have my boyfriend. I have my select best friends. I have myself.



I've been invited to three parties on Friday Saturday. I don't know which I'll go to, but I know that I want to go out. If you see me online on Friday Saturday night, please harass me to my breaking point. I can't be inside any longer.

Edit: I'm fucking stupid. They're on Saturday, not Friday. Feel free to e-shank me anyways if I'm home Friday on grounds of sheer retardation.


Never forget yourselves and who you truly are. If you can't be yourself, who can you be?

Featured Artists

Ghosts.


I've been listening to these albums nonstop. Each time I can spring new ideas.




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Devious Information

  • Current Age: 12/24/1988
  • Current Residence: Southern California
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: Men's Small
  • Interests: Science and expression through choreography.
  • Favourite movie: American History X and Monster's Inc.
  • Favourite band or musician: Bob Dylan, Damien Rice, Rage Against the Machine, Red Hot Chili Peppers, and the Mad Caddies.
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock and Ska
  • Favourite artist: Amgen and their genetic expression.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Poe, Sendak and Carl
  • Favourite photographer: James Nachtwey
  • Personal Quote: "You're hella what? SHUT THE HELLA UP!"
  • Tools of the Trade: Life and light

Devious Comments

*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 9 hours 32 minutes ago
:lmao: It's a sad day when an inanimate object is smarter than you! I had that happen a few times though. When I was little, I'd get frustrated because I couldn't make my bed and then my dad would say "You have to be smarter than the mattress Melissa!"

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`rapidograph:iconrapidograph: 10 hours 27 minutes ago
... newer phone, same digits...

... I have never been a cellphone kind of guy, I am constantly leaving them in my truck or my drawer at work... I can't tell you how many times I have called myself on another phone just to find the ringtone under my bed or in my shaving kit...

... I've said it before and I'll say it again, I hate being held hostage by inanimate objects... :shrug:

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"Women and cats will do as they please...
men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea." - Robert A. Heinlein
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 10 hours 39 minutes ago
Ooh, which phone? The same one you had?

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`rapidograph:iconrapidograph: 11 hours 26 minutes ago
... I don't know yet, I had my service shut off for fear the finders-keepers of my phone would be calling relatives in Indonesia on my minutes... I get a new phone in the mail in probably a few days yet...

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"Women and cats will do as they please...
men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea." - Robert A. Heinlein
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 11 hours 49 minutes ago
:( :( :( :( :(

And nobody has tried to get a hold of you or anybody in your contacts?

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`rapidograph:iconrapidograph: 12 hours 32 minutes ago
... replace it obviously, I'm just bummed I lost all my phone numbers and addresses saved up on the SIM card...

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"Women and cats will do as they please...
men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea." - Robert A. Heinlein
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 22 hours 57 minutes ago
So I heard. :(

What are you going to do about your phone?

Myy phone doesn't even SAY missed call. :( :( :(

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`rapidograph:iconrapidograph: 1 day 1 hour ago
... we tried calling you 3x on Saturday and never got thru... I would've called more but I lost my cellphone somewhere on the Embarcadero...

:cries:

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"Women and cats will do as they please...
men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea." - Robert A. Heinlein
*srdrummerboy:iconsrdrummerboy: 2 days 9 hours ago
At this point, no, I do not have a job...

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Here's to Clive Cussler :#1:

"We could swim inside and knife them in their respective guts..." :stab:

~Al Giordino, Atlantis Found
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 2 days 9 hours ago
I'm so sorry. :(

Do you have a job? And I definitely agree about insurance and gas prices. It's crazy. :no:

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
*srdrummerboy:iconsrdrummerboy: 2 days 10 hours ago
My grandfather died yesterday, my parents might be splitting up, I'm pretty much almost out of money because of gas prices and the cost of insurance, and a friend that I really care about just got engaged. :cries:

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Here's to Clive Cussler :#1:

"We could swim inside and knife them in their respective guts..." :stab:

~Al Giordino, Atlantis Found
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 2 days 11 hours ago
Why not?

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
*srdrummerboy:iconsrdrummerboy: 2 days 15 hours ago
Do you really want to know?

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Here's to Clive Cussler :#1:

"We could swim inside and knife them in their respective guts..." :stab:

~Al Giordino, Atlantis Found
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 2 days 21 hours ago
Seriously, the weather is grossing me out. 9AM and it's already 80. :|

What's wrong with your life? :(

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
*srdrummerboy:iconsrdrummerboy: 2 days 23 hours ago
Do you want the long answer or the short answer??? :bucktooth:

It's been really hot up here too. We've had 100+ degree weather during the day, and 85+ degree weather at night. I'm not too fond of it.

The rest of my life pretty much blows, but I won't bore you with it. :no:

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Here's to Clive Cussler :#1:

"We could swim inside and knife them in their respective guts..." :stab:

~Al Giordino, Atlantis Found
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 3 days 6 hours ago
Totally awesome! It's really hot here and I have no AC so I've been taking like three showers a day. It's 100F at 10AM. I hate it.

How are you?

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`snowmask:iconsnowmask: 3 days 6 hours ago
Fuck Justin Timberlake.

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*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 3 days 7 hours ago
Do you mean the Justin Timberlake version? My friends wrote some alternate lyrics back in middle school which made me laugh.

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
`snowmask:iconsnowmask: 3 days 7 hours ago
awwww :)

That's an awesome song.


I've suddenly become insanely into Cry Me A River.

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*srdrummerboy:iconsrdrummerboy: 3 days 8 hours ago
hey, how are you doing??

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Here's to Clive Cussler :#1:

"We could swim inside and knife them in their respective guts..." :stab:

~Al Giordino, Atlantis Found
=frozenpandaman:iconfrozenpandaman: 3 days 16 hours ago
:shrug:

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*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 3 days 17 hours ago
Likewise!

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!
*dammitMEL:icondammitMEL: 3 days 20 hours ago
How does your computer even handle that shit? I don't know about memory or any of that crap, but you must have like a hugeeee epenis computer.

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<drackar> Heterosexual nuns would go lesbian for mel.

<zanenkim> OHMYGOD ITS THE MOTHERFUCKING MEL FROM HELL!